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The GirlY

`ximin
`sweet15
`wilful/unreasonable
`stubborn
`daydreaming
`love stars to bits and pieces.
`music for life.
`beachlife.
`[Jesse McCartney]- just so you know.

-[detest]-
`hypocrites.
`nags.
`liers.
`backstabber.
`forced into doing things.


WishlistY

`to be widd him
`stop brooding over things i shouldnt
`change to b a better person
`get good results
`dun nneed to study
`a adiddas/puma bag
`e converse shoe
`clothes
`that op file
`more friends
`living a life of freedom



darlinksY

[[*WEFC*]]

abel
adeline
Andrew
daniel lim
daniel wong
emily
eric
joshua
jules
leonard
lucille
marcus.P
mervyn
pris
sulwyn
vera
weisheng
yongling
zeken

ximin's memories


*[[____ evgians (: `-//*

christina
gene
hazel
lianli
qunbo
wenkunn

*[[____ family (: `-//*

cliff[korkor]
douglas[korkor]
tengda[korkor]

*[[____ others (: `-//*

my friendster
G-cube..Rock on!

whisper goodbyeY




kick them awayY
July 2007
August 2007


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Monday, August 6, 2007

I seriously dread school now.. Super tiring lahs=( Work Work Work and MORE Work..
Going bonkers really soon.. Can't wait for everything to be over.. Hmmms..
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School actually have been not bad.. Just having little problems here and there hindering my own studies.. Although many of them have been settled and left behind.. Certain problems just can't be forgotten and left behind.. Been brooding about many things the past few weeks. I know brooding doesn't help.. But certain problems just can't be helped.. Friends, relationship.. All came at the wrong time.. Been struggling.. Been emo-ing and i know i have been an burden in my friends eye.. I'm sorry if i've affected you.. Been trying to stop all these crap and be happier in school.. Like before.. Disturb people, play around and joke around.. Other than all these i don't know what more i can do.. Just faking a smile all day long is better than making others worry.. I just can't please everyone like i wished i have. But.. certain things are better left unspoken...
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[to him]
You know who you are and hopefully you'll be reading.. Well, this is all I've got to say..
All along I'm not angry with you.. Just kinda upset about what have happened.. Not gonna explain anymore as it's pointless already.. Been going through plenty of thoughts and realized how simple things could have been.. Life could have been much easier.. That conversation that day.. Didn't meant to just walk away like that.. Just pretend i didn't asked you anything bahs.. Just wanted to know what was going on.. But guessed everything is being settled already and certain things are meant to be left unspoken.. I also understand why you didn't come to clarify things and so on.. Didn't blame you for anything.. Well, things just came too fast and I'm unable to accept them yet.. Give me more time bahs.. Glad that you have been very happy the past weeks.. Happy for you.. Cherish her well and good luck for your exams.. Study hard alright.. Anything can still come to look for me and you'll still be my fav daddiiex=)
ps: You still owe me something..
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[Qb]
Hey.. Thanks for tagging ahs=) Thought through what you told me that day.. And i guessed you're right.. If there was really something between the both of us.. Then things would have been different.. Well at least now i know he is happier with another girl.. What more could i still ask for? Know that brooding over is not gonna make him like me or something.. Just need a little more time to think through again and slowly let go.. I still love him alot i guessed? Slowly bahs. Also happy to know that things between you and her have been great.. hahas.. take care ya? thanks for your advice=) its helped.. really.
- Gonna end this post here. Update soon or something.
*ximin
`hope to disappear for awhile.. i understand everything.. just can't bear to..

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