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The GirlY

`ximin
`sweet15
`wilful/unreasonable
`stubborn
`daydreaming
`love stars to bits and pieces.
`music for life.
`beachlife.
`[Jesse McCartney]- just so you know.

-[detest]-
`hypocrites.
`nags.
`liers.
`backstabber.
`forced into doing things.


WishlistY

`to be widd him
`stop brooding over things i shouldnt
`change to b a better person
`get good results
`dun nneed to study
`a adiddas/puma bag
`e converse shoe
`clothes
`that op file
`more friends
`living a life of freedom



darlinksY

[[*WEFC*]]

abel
adeline
Andrew
daniel lim
daniel wong
emily
eric
joshua
jules
leonard
lucille
marcus.P
mervyn
pris
sulwyn
vera
weisheng
yongling
zeken

ximin's memories


*[[____ evgians (: `-//*

christina
gene
hazel
lianli
qunbo
wenkunn

*[[____ family (: `-//*

cliff[korkor]
douglas[korkor]
tengda[korkor]

*[[____ others (: `-//*

my friendster
G-cube..Rock on!

whisper goodbyeY




kick them awayY
July 2007
 August 2007


CREDITSY
designer sugar-starx
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`photoshop CS2

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

What should i say. I expected this reaction from you all along?
Knew you wouldn't remember..so didn't really put it in mind..
Promise are meant to be emptied anyway..
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Wonder how long do i have to fake this smile and happiness in school.. I'm sorry but I'm really not fine at all..i tried my best to give you my blessing and forgive you for whatever you said and done. But its really too hard a work to do. To stay happy and cheerful like before is impossible. What to say? Really feel like scolding you and giving you a tight slap from that day.. To trust myself to be stupid enough to trust you so much.. Thinking all your advice was really from your heart but cant expect you to betray me like that.. Think those sweet words you have given me are just a comfort to make me feel better.. thank for playing me around like a fool..
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I doubt you understand all those hurt that you have given? Those harsh words you have given and the attitude towards me completely changed? To say the truth really got so hard to be done? Let me tell you, i would rather have your frank-ness than your lies and ignores.. Was expected about what have happened today. But i still can't believe the attitude you have given me at the end of the day.. thanks. If thats what you want to give me, then please stop interfering into my life and acting like you really cared.. Till now i still treat you like how i treat you last time. But i guess i really couldn't let go of those memories.. But since you don't want it. Then forget it.. It doesn't matter anymore.
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School these few days kinda sucks. Maybe it's me bahs.. I'm sorry if i had vented my anger on you and I know I'm wrong.. really sorry alright? I've tried my best to hold a smile on my face. Give me time to sort everything out..
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I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with..
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*ximin
`I don't wanna fake a smile on my face. But i ain't given a choice at all.

6:09 AM