.-Paradoxy-.

The GirlY

`ximin
`sweet15
`wilful/unreasonable
`stubborn
`daydreaming
`love stars to bits and pieces.
`music for life.
`beachlife.
`[Jesse McCartney]- just so you know.

-[detest]-
`hypocrites.
`nags.
`liers.
`backstabber.
`forced into doing things.

WishlistY

`to be widd him
`stop brooding over things i shouldnt
`change to b a better person
`get good results
`dun nneed to study
`a adiddas/puma bag
`e converse shoe
`clothes
`that op file
`more friends
`living a life of freedom

darlinksY

[[*WEFC*]]

abel
adeline
Andrew
daniel lim
daniel wong
emily
eric
joshua
jules
leonard
lucille
marcus.P
mervyn
pris
sulwyn
vera
weisheng
yongling
zeken

ximin's memories

*[[____ evgians (: `-//*

christina
gene
hazel
lianli
qunbo
wenkunn

*[[____ family (: `-//*

cliff[korkor]
douglas[korkor]
tengda[korkor]

*[[____ others (: `-//*

my friendster
G-cube..Rock on!

whisper goodbyeY

kick them awayY

July 2007
August 2007

CREDITSY

designer sugar-starx
x x x x x x
`photoshop CS2

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Plenty of things happened lately and i really really feeling sick and tired of it..
How to say.. Hais.. Don't feel like blogging about it because i don't wanna be reminded about it again when i read my blog next time..
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What does best friend really means sometimes.. Being frank to each other or just keep keeping things from one another and slowly drifting apart although the friendship has been there for years? Ever wonder how much you can hurt the other party although its only a small thing? Felt kinda lost when my friend ask me this question.. Haven't replied to her question yet. also dunno how to. What are you gonna do if your best friend and you fell in love with the same person? Typical answer will be both parties giving the person up or let the other have it. But when this really happens, will you still hold to the promise you have made?
How to maintain a good friendship then? It's seems so hard to develop mutual trust between both parties.. So what you share your problem with that person.. He/She might never have shared a single thing with you.. There is somehow a barrier built in them stopping them from sharing.. Likewise, the person might not to share because they feel that they don't wanna add on to the burden you already have.. But they don't understand how much they make the friend worry for them as they hide everything to themselves.
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Don't feel like talking about it anymore.. Lots of thoughts running through my mind now and i am lazy to write out everything=X Kinda lost about what i wanted to blog.. My points are very messy as i just typed as i think.. Maybe i'll blog more about it again. i missed my old self completely. The self whereby i don't really brood over things, taking each days as it comes and live a life of happy go lucky. Somehow after since sec 2.. life sucks completely.. Problem arise one after another.. Quarrels with friends, betrayal among friends and those kinda hypocritical masks that people started to wear.. Only then i realised how happy my primary school life is.. No worries and problems and each day just seems to be so fun.. There's no such problems at those kinda age. and everything seems to be so pure and innocent. As people grow and become more sensible, the way they do things also changes.. No longer doing things for others but for themselves. To achieve something they could do anything even betraying their best friends.. i wonder how they do so..
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Doubt you have realize how much pain you have afflicted in me..
I know you maybe thinking that keeping me in the dark may be a better way out. But i can tell you it's not and it really hurts to see you react in such a way..
I would rather have your frankness than playing me like a fool. i really feel like an idiot.
So much so that i really hate those memories you have add in my life.
Talked to you lesser day by day, hoping that the feelings would decay
But somehow memories of you still lingers around..
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*ximin
`i really hate your presence..teach me how to forget you..

8:30 AM