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The GirlY

`ximin
`sweet15
`wilful/unreasonable
`stubborn
`daydreaming
`love stars to bits and pieces.
`music for life.
`beachlife.
`[Jesse McCartney]- just so you know.

-[detest]-
`hypocrites.
`nags.
`liers.
`backstabber.
`forced into doing things.


WishlistY

`to be widd him
`stop brooding over things i shouldnt
`change to b a better person
`get good results
`dun nneed to study
`a adiddas/puma bag
`e converse shoe
`clothes
`that op file
`more friends
`living a life of freedom



darlinksY

[[*WEFC*]]

abel
adeline
Andrew
daniel lim
daniel wong
emily
eric
joshua
jules
leonard
lucille
marcus.P
mervyn
pris
sulwyn
vera
weisheng
yongling
zeken

ximin's memories


*[[____ evgians (: `-//*

christina
gene
hazel
lianli
qunbo
wenkunn

*[[____ family (: `-//*

cliff[korkor]
douglas[korkor]
tengda[korkor]

*[[____ others (: `-//*

my friendster
G-cube..Rock on!

whisper goodbyeY




kick them awayY
July 2007
 August 2007


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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Had a terrible headache today.. Injured my back and i can't walk properly..
Felt like a paralyzed person lahs.. Zzz.. Hope i recover tmr..

Tomorrow gonna have investiture. So sians. Still hoping i could skipped school tomorrow. Anyway it's gonna be the last day i be going for cca already.. So just go bahs even if i really don't feel like it.. There's first aid course for the kids tomorrow.. Just need to be there to look around. Maybe i be going for Jump Start bahs. Practice maths or something.. It better than wasting my time sitting there looking around wasting my time and spoiling my mood. Jump Start today still kinda fun bahs.. Source base was so easy.. Kinda weird to be there because i don't have to be there.. Just there to have some kinda fun or something.. Kill time in another words. But i think it really works bahs.. Because i get to do work=) And I'm gonna skip PE tomorrow if not i really going to be paralyzed lerhx. Back really hurts.

Everyone around seems to have problems between them and their friends. Especially those who have been friends for years and can come telling me they quarrel because of a stupid stuff. I don't know whether i should help them solve their problems or just look whats gonna happen and try to help as much as possible? Trying to help sometimes might either make things worse or no change. Really hate to see them ignoring each other and somehow hate each.. Here myself having my own unsolvable problems and there they are quarreling over silly stuffs.

Perhaps it's true that people do change but they them self will never know.. They will insist that the other party change or just can't be bothered about whats going on.. Sometimes people just need to be scolded at, shouted at or lose something before they realized what they have done was wrong and try to put them self in the other party's shoe to understand how much it hurts to say all those stuff or something. Been through all this stuff and understand what it means to hurt someone and get hurt at the same time. They might need a middle person to help solve the problem totally. Either one of the parties have to give in to the other and try to salvage the friendship they have had for years. It be such a waste to just give it up. Imagine you have gone through so much together and because of a change you give up the friendship. People need plenty of time to sort out their thinkings and try to get over it. It's never easy but sometimes you just don't have a choice?

Hmmm..i myself need time to forget about some unhappy things that happened time back. Understand that i shouldn't try to sort things out now as its not the time but i just forced my self to pretend its not there and just live on with life? I just can't do it.. Leaving it behind and coming back to it later will just make things worst and hurt more. Choice-less. Wonder if they give a thought about me when they say all those words? And whether they have realized what they are doing just hurts deep into the heart? Its just hard for me to face you people now. I guess you really didn't know eh?

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Its getting hard to be around you
There's so much i can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause i don't know how to make this feeling stop.
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*ximin
`I know you don't care at all. And guess i understand what's really going on on...thanks for hiding the truth for sooo long.. Really should THANK you, shouldn't i?

7:12 AM